Inertia

As the hours drift along
Time escapes
Losing minutes, losing hours
Losing days
My lethargic lullaby
I sing alone
Makes me forget I had a place
I once had a home

Drifting slowly through this madness
In a coloured haze
Somehow I dulled the pain,
Made it slip away

I've almost forgotten how to feel
Forgotten how to trust
Walls thicken, grow taller than me
And corrode with rust
Wilting away, without light
Too blind to see
The only one who can save me... is me
© Lisa Patric 2008






Horizon

In the distance I can hear it
Amid the strokes of blue and white
Calling out my name,
But almost out of sight
Not sure where it's leading me
The road, it could be long
But if I'm not back by sunrise,
Then you'll know that I'm gone,
Gone...

I'm following the clouds that drift across the sky
I've been waiting for this moment,
Only my soul knows why
Singing like a siren
Calling sailors into shore
And I can't ignore it
Anymore

I once dreamt I was flying
Floating through the clouds
I swear as I was drifting
I heard it call out loud
Now I realize the wind
Has always whispered my name
I just didn't choose to answer
Scared to go against the grain

I'm following the clouds that drift across the sky
I've been waiting for this moment,
Only my soul knows why
Singing like a siren
Calling sailors into shore
And I can't ignore it
Anymore....anymore

© Lisa Patric 2007




Jaded

Broken hearts, broken lives, broken minds
Sometimes living is a pantomime
You just pretend, and hope that somebody believes you
Empty shells, empty words, empty beds
Better not knowing what's inside our heads
If you play your role and don't ask why
Just do what you're supposed to

Chorus:
I know life means more than just existence
I want more than to live for someone else
I was once naive and full of promise
Now I'm jaded just like everyone else

Hearts used, hearts abused, hearts bruised
It's a game you always seem to lose
The only way to win the game is to rise above
Full of life, full of love, full of shit
I'd like to say that I win at it
But I'd be a liar
If I said I'm not a loser in love

Chorus:
I know life means more than just existence
I want more than to live for someone else
I was once naive and full of promise
Now I'm jaded just like everyone else

© Lisa Patric 2007



Goodbye

Boy you think you got control of me?
You got it comin' baby can't you see
You're playing games and running all those lines
I'm done with you - you're out of time
My heart's not a toy to be trifled with
If you want me you should have acted like you did
This game's over now, lose my number
I'm sure that you can replace me with another

Chorus:
I'm through with you
You need to leave me alone
Instead of crying how you miss me
On the phone
You had your chance
You and me are through
Go and call her now, I bet she's waiting for you

Think I'm dumb enough to buy it? I'm not.
Your stupid lying cheating ass has just been caught
Here's your things
Go away, begone
I don't want to watch you water my lawn

Chorus:
I'm through with you
You need to leave me alone
Instead of crying how you miss me
On the phone
You had your chance
You and me are through
Go and call her now, I bet she's waiting for you

You're not the man that I once knew
I don't remember what I saw in you
Pack your bags, take your shit
I don't wanna talk, don't wanna sleep on it
You fed me lines, you killed me trust
Don't say you're sorry, there's no more us
Yeah you heard me right, I said goodbye
I'm sick of hearing all your lies

Chorus:
I'm through with you
You need to leave me alone
Instead of crying how you miss me
On the phone
You had your chance
You and me are through
Go and call her now, I bet she's waiting for you

© Lisa Patric 2007




On My Own with Encrypted Verbalist

I'm on my own
I'm on my own....

Entranced by the moonlight,
It's got me feelin just right,
So I'll embrace the sight,
Then escape the night and fight,
My way back to the light,
These feelings tried, but never true,
Mind left blank, don't have a clue,
On what to do,
When I see you,
Struggling to keep the hope alive, I dive,
Into a pool of self pity,
It's this city, it's dragging me down,
Depths unknown,

Chorus:
I'm on my own, free from the pain
I'm on my own, free of these games
You'll never drag me down, never push me around
These streets my friend,
On my own again
 
I'm surrounded by this deafening tone,
As I awoke, I saw there was no hope,
Not a strand of forgiveness,
In a single instance we lived in,
So I tried relivin every decision,
Mixed results got me stressed to the point I break,
So next time I'll make this journey alone,
Let it be my mistake

Chorus:
I'm on my own, free from the pain
I'm on my own, free of these games
You'll never drag me down, never push me around
These streets my friend,
On my own again

Free from this madness, this sadness
Once drove me to the brink
My mind's clear now, can't you see now
I'm stronger than you think
I won't be pushed (I won't be pushed)
No I won't fear (I won't fear)
Being on my own, cause I'll be fine alone
Yeah I'm on own, on my own....
On my own again

Chorus:
I'm on my own, free from the pain
I'm on my own, free of these games
You'll never drag me down, never push me around
These streets my friend,
On my own again

© Encrypted Verbalist 2008

 

Dignity feat. Encrypted Verbalist

Wander through the darkened streets alone
Shiver from the bitter wind, it drifts through my soul
People glance at me as they pass
Can they tell I'm an emotional black hole?
It never felt this cold I'm sure of that
It only seems like just a week ago

Chorus:
It was the cost of finally saying no
It's what happened when I longed to be free
But as cold as it is out here on these streets
I think I'd rather have my dignity

Coffee loses flavour...when life's lost its shine
But it warms my blood and keeps me out of the cold
Watching the passing cars through the glass
Wondering how much I'll lose before I grow old
Maybe I've lost already, it's too late
To start again and recover my soul

Chorus:
It was the cost of finally saying no
It's what happened when I longed to be free
But as cold as it is out here on these streets
I think I'd rather have my dignity
x2

EV Rap:
Don't worry your precious head, you see,
This clarity it's apparently glaring me,
Down from the inside,
All the tears i've cried,
But this well's run dry,
Adjusted my stride, I found my pride,
Rather have my dignity than you pinnin me,
To this corner again,
I've relinquished this sin,
Forgotten the friend I once held faith in,
So lets just pretend
We can start again,
I'd walk it a different path,
Maybe don a different mask,
I feel the cold air overtaking me,
As I drift to sleep,
My head inches above the street,
It's comforting, you see
Cause at least you're not with me, I'm feelin free,
And at least I have my dignity,
Yeah, at least I have my dignity,
Cause I just can't see, you,
Dragging me...down...down...down

Chorus:
It was the cost of finally saying no
It's what happened when I longed to be free
But as cold as it is out here on these streets
I think I'd rather have my dignity

© Lisa Patric and Encrypted Verbalist 2008



Careful What You Wish For

You always said that I talked too much
But the truth was that I didn't say enough
You wanted me to change into someone new
Well I did and then I knew that I had outgrown you
You looked pale without the tint of rose
I should have seen that before I suppose
I wish I knew the things that I know now
I would have left you sooner but I didn't know how

Chorus:
Careful what you wish for
Things have a way of coming true
Be careful what you wish for
It'll happen to you

When I left you said you wanted me back
But when I asked you why you couldn't answer that
You saw me grow stronger but you couldn't see
I didn't change for you, instead life changed me
Decided that I needed something more than you
A life I could be proud to grow into
Love shouldn't hurt, but that was all I knew
It was time to move on and find something new

Chorus:
Careful what you wish for
Things have a way of coming true
Be careful what you wish for
It'll happen to you

© Lisa Patric 2008


New Leaf

Like anyone I have my limits,
The cracks were hard to hide
Broken heart, battered mind
From the violence and lies
When the rubbled cleared away
I was barely alive

If you let things lie, they'll never change
Start anew or stay the same
Broken hearts don't fix themselves
Past is past and it's just as well
Don't dwell on things you can't get back
It's not worth living in the past
Shed your skin, start anew
And always be true to you

Wonder how I let it happen
Knowing what I know
I had the power deep inside me
To let those demons go
Now I've found the way back home
and god I missed it so

Demons can only be cleansed with light
Let it in, regain your sight
Don't let grudges carry you
Not worth the pain they put you through
Move on to a better plane
Leave the anger, leave the blame
Cry if you must but then move on,
The future is now, the past is gone

© Lisa Patric 2008

 

Connections


Apathy and ignorance have become a way of life
where love of money rules over doing what is right
March right in on your high horse and take it all away
Not a thought for the all the lives that are lost along the way

Power struggles, heartless leaders, motivation - greed
People dying  just to fill their one and only need
Soldiers sent to fight, to protect our peace of mind
Returning in a coffin to the ones they left behind

Chorus:
I can't close my eyes or make it go away
Blood is spilling everywhere, what a price to pay
All because the men in charge gave away their souls
Connected with a single need, to be in control

War over religion, war over oil
War over racial hate and war over soil
When there's so much space to share why do we need to fight
Greed has cast a shadow like an everlasting night

I know I'm just one person, that this is just a song
But it seems to me that things have gone so horribly wrong
Guess I'm too naive to know why people live this way
For the sake of dollars that they can't take with them anyway


Chorus:
I can't close my eyes or make it go away
Blood is spilling everywhere, what a price to pay
All because the men in charge gave away their souls
Connected with a single need, to be in control

© Lisa Patric and Sean Heddle 2008